So, Saturday I am going to see Erica Jane in Chicago!! Can you feel the excitement!!! I mean that woman is beautiful, strong, smart, sexy, talented, and amazing. I love RHOB, but for some reason I am drawn to her. Her alter ego maybe? Idk sometimes I think it would be exciting to act like someone I’m not in my daily day. Like her, she dances, sings, acts, and is someone totally different and unique. She becomes someone else and doesn’t care what people think. Not about her age, her hair, her outfit, or her sex appeal. To me this is fantasizing.

 

I would love to one day play out these roles in my head of other personalities. I mean if you ask my husband, he would say I have the role of BITCH down pretty good and she comes out often. 🤬 But to ooze sex appeal and be so confident is something I have always wanted. But I am a seriously shy person when it comes to stuff like that. I mean I am comfortable with my husband behind closed doors, but she puts it out here and encourages people to be who they want to.

 

So, it’s me and 5 of my girlfriends going. We are a mixture of personalities, which I love. However, I find myself a little different with each when in a personal setting. I mean I know who I can say anything to, who I can tell my darkest secrets and laugh about them, and who I just have to go with the flow and be somewhat reserved about my feelings. Don’t get me wrong, each one is a true and dear friend, but again each has their own personality. I mean I can tell one .. oh yeah last night I got fucked like never before 🤦‍♀️🫣 but I know I could never utter those words to the other. She would totally fall to the ground. But that’s why I love them and why I need each one in my life. To go to when I am feeling off, have them to ask if I am ok, and to just laugh. Who doesn’t?

 

Part 2:

 

Disappointed… I was going into the show knowing nothing about CHICAGO.   Just the intrigue of Erika Jayne.. The show itself was amazing! I loved it. However, Erika, just didn’t put it over the top for me. I thought she would be the one to put this show on, but I felt she was lacking luster. Weak vocals and stiff dancing, with her Erika Jayne previews of her shows I thought she would be such a showstopper.  Goes to show what auto tune, lights, and costumes can do. I almost thought I could be good on stage with all of the extras after this.

 

I’m not being mean, it’s just my opinion. But she was flat and stiff. Overall it was a great show and a much needed day out with the girls.  A day out with my girls, the ones that keep me sane and laughing. The ones that know when I need them and what I need. Do you have them in your life? Guys or girls? Everyone should have their solid group that you know will be there ride or die.. now don’t get me wrong I didn’t always have this kind of group. I was a loaner growing up, content with doing my schoolwork, listening to music and just doodling.  As I became older and had children I craved that kind of friendship more. I was lucky to have found a solid group that through my kids baseball. Now 11 years later I have a select few that stayed around. What I mean by that is a select few that could tolerate me, lol.

 

My girls were something I didn’t know or understand that I needed. I have my husband and family, and we are super close, but girl relationships, if they last are different.  I was never that run and tell my secrets kinda person, often I kept everything to myself. But when you have kids you need to vent and not to your significant other. You need a woman to understand the feels that you are having, because they feel them too. They know what to say and if they don’t, they just know how to listen. That was hard for me to understand and even harder for me to give back. I never had confidence in myself, especially when it came to giving advice. I always felt like I was saying the wrong thing or that the words were not coming out right. So, I guess my feeling uncomfortable and not confident enough made me push those types of relationships away.  It’s truly amazing to know that there are a group of ladies behind me and that I am one of those ladies for them as well.  They have given me more confidence in myself later in life than I ever had.  I can only hope to pass this on to my kids at a younger age and have them understand the value of friendship.